Continued Growth.

So, i miss you. Things haven't gotten a bit easier, although i think i am growing through all of this. Which might be the point. I was immature and selfish beyond belief and probably would have made a terrible wife. I have been learning a lot lately although i am far from where i need to be. I still long to be married though. I have felt lonliness to the point of tear almost daily. I don't think i could stand a roomate because i love my privacy, but at nights i am so alone and it gets harder every night. But God has allowed this which means it has a purpose. I feel like i am being tested in every single area of my life right now so be patient with me if it seems i am learning slow or even sometimes not making any progress at all. Work becomes more stresful everyday and the lonliness at nights eats me sometimes it is so strong. But i want to come out of this strong and looking less like me and more like Him. Bear with me. I need a lot of support right now.