Going All the Way

I was reading a book at the bookstore a couple of days ago and it was telling the two different times on the cross that Jesus was offered wine to drink and why he only accpeted one time. I had assmued before that the two instances were probably just two different perspectives of the same story. But the author explained how Jesus was offered wine before the he was cruxified and after he was on the cross and the first time the wine was offered it contained gall which contains a sedative. The second it was offered to fulfill the scriptures and because Jesus called out that he was thirsty. He could have drank the wine the first time it was offered and been given even a tiny bit of relief, but he didn't. Why would he not do that? Because he loves me. He refused to be given any relief for his own suffering so that when i suffered with no relief he could understand my suffereing. He chose not to sedate his own pain so that he could be with me through my pain. How could i not fall in love with a God like that? A God who refused to numb his own suffering and pain so that he could carry mine. I love Him.