Such a Time as This.

Kirk asked me to live with him for a while. At first i wrote the offer off casually saying i would consider it, but then it began knawing at me. I was at first confused, then contemplative, now terrified. I feel like God is wanting me to show Him to Kirk. That maybe He wants me to share openly with my brother what He has been doing in my life the past couple years. Maybe this is why i was sent here: to be saved and be prepared. Maybe I have been being prepared for such a time as this. I need to pray much more because i am so afraid. Here is comfortable and even the thought of living Jordan, my friends, and my church has me digging in my heels here. I feel as though I am being asked to put my own life on hold for a while and that brings out every selfish part of me who keeps wanting to pitch a fit, whinning about my own wants and desires. I don't feel prepared for this at all.