Choices Not Feelings.

So i have been learning a lot lately that love is not a feeling or emotion, but rather a choice. So even though my heart is bruised, my pride is hurt, and my dreams seem impossible now, i am not going to be driven by feelings. He hurt my feelings. It hurts just to see him. Everything in me wants to be mean, to be hateful, to hurt back. But God in me says no. He says he loved me when i was mean, hateful, hurtful, unlovable. He expects the same from me. So i have decided today that i am not going to be those hateful things. I am going to go against my feelings and against my emotions and love him, relentlessly, without asking for even graditude back let alone love in return. I am going to daily choose kindness over rudeness, love over hate, patience over frustration, gentleness over harshness and mercy over judgement. I am going to consciously choose to love him when it hurts, when i get nothing in return and when he is at his most unlovable, because that is where Christ found me. That is what He calls me to do. Choose. I choose love.