Distractions.

Normally are a bad thing. But i have been so thankful for them these past few days. Without them my mind is constantly on the run and that is overwhelming. Work, reading, blogging. I am trying really hard to accept this as God's will but it feels all wrong like a shoe that doesn't fit right. And i am trying hard not to let this get me down. He deserves his space and his feelings are the most important right now. But all i feel is this heavy sadness weighing me down. I drag around because it is so heavy and i am so tired.